Things just got real.....Zac and I just got our schedule from the IVF nurse this week. We are really doing this. IVF has been this thought in the back of my mind for almost a year now and we are finally doing it. I just started taking birth control which is weird because I haven't had to take it for the past four years now. I don't know if it is the birth control or the fact that I am so anxious but my emotions have been all over the place. I am somewhere between wanting to cry at anything even slightly emotional or slap people because they are just getting on my nerves. Guys, the nightly news is making me cry. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?! Caution: please do not take offense to anything Katelyn may say or do for at least the next two months.
So the schedule....It looks like we will start injections right after Thanksgiving, have our egg retrieval sometime the week of December 7th and then egg transfer five days after that. This means that I could take a pregnancy test right around Christmas Eve. Which I am still trying to decide what to do. I could literally find out if I am pregnant or not on Christmas, meaning this could be the best Christmas in my life EVER or the absolute worst Christmas EVER. Blog world, what would you do?
I think IVF is going to take over my blog for awhile. It is really the only thing I can think about right now. Infertility has consumed most of my thoughts for the last several years but now with IVF looming ahead I would say it is consuming more than ever. Luckily, I don't have to alter my exercise too much up until egg retrieval. Exercise right now is my biggest stress relieve. I am training for another half on Halloween. Usually, by this point I am so burned out on running but running has been such a safe haven for me that I haven't been able to give it up. Those last few weeks of In Vitro are going to be really hard emotionally. And that is when they take away my running.
Looking back over the last four years, Zac and I have both sacrificed and given up so much just for the chance to have a baby of our own. But it will all be worth it. every. last. second. will be worth it.
Crazy exciting and scary! I'm glad you'll be able to keep running through most of it and that you find it as therapeutic as I do. The timing is kind of crummy. I have a feeling you won't be able to wait to find out though. You'll probably want to know if it worked or not asap. So, go for it! If you get a negative result, maybe the joy and excitement of Christmas will help temper your sadness? And, at least Zac will be off work so you can be together no matter what happens. I used to cling to Alan during those hard times. This is going to add a lot of stress and craziness to your holidays so I hope you have time to get your shopping and all of the other Christmas to-dos finished before you start your shots. Although, maybe shopping will give you something to think about besides IVF so maybe it would be good to save it. I wish you both the very, very best. You will be in our prayers! Love you!
ReplyDeleteYa! I know it feels so great to get things going! I'm so happy you are willing to share your experience here. That way I won't bug you everyday to see how it's going :) You are such a strong lady, I admire you so much for that. You guys are in our prayers! Always.
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